Saturday, December 31, 2011
To Kjersti
Saturday, December 24, 2011
Saturday, December 17, 2011
Sing it Steve!!!
Don’t be too slow
I should have quit you baby
A long time ago
Left you flat
And split for mexico
Don’t try to stop me
Child, you’re talkin’ too fast
You and your friends babe
You are a thing in my past
You’re much too slow
I’m goin’ to mexico
I’ve got four or five hundred miles to go
Down that southbound highway
’53 studebaker goin’ for broke
I’m pushin’ it night and day
I’ve had enough of your lies
To last a long, long time
You and your mother, babe
You’re like a nursery rhyme
You’re much too slow
I’m goin’ to mexico
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
the winter of our discontent
Monday, December 12, 2011
Many truths and 2 lies
Thursday, December 8, 2011
get out.
Monday, December 5, 2011
Crispy winter childhood.
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
I never should have attempted those hurdles...
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Laura Veirs
Everybody knows your game
Feel like I’m running in place
Everything's changed, everything's changed
I'm gonna move to the country
She's gonna move
So I can see the stars
Heavenly stars, the heavenly stars, the heavenly stars
She's gonna move
Heavenly stars, the heavenly stars, the heavenly stars
I dove into the night
Bathed in the beautiful blue light
Sheltered inside a bat cave
Me and my baby had a conversation
Gonna move to the country
She's gonna move
So I can see the stars
Heavenly stars, the heavenly stars, the heavenly stars
I'm gonna move to the country
She's gonna move
So I can see the stars
Heavenly stars, the heavenly stars, the heavenly stars...
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
I love Anastasia and Thanksgiving.
L'inno di mameli
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
surrender me.
I don’t know how to do this. This weakness. I don’t know how not to struggle. Flail. When even giving up is within my control, when even the choice to submit is an act of my own will. My fingers tap out the familiar rhythms. Each beat a reminder of security. Nails on fingerprints. Constantly touching base. Rooted in my own muscular memory, I play out the dissonant melody of my fears on a palm-sized piano with 4 keys and a thumb.
I just don’t know how to finish the song.
4321123443211234 why doesn’t this code mean anything? There are times when it feels like the subatomic meaning of life. Everything hinges on this pattern continuing and I have to be the one to keep it going foreverandever amen.
I can’t let go of the rope. We’ve reached the end of the beginning and I am still holding on for dear (life? Is this really living?!) Callused hands feet dangling arms stretched ground looking soft and all the leaves in the fall reaching out to catch my iniquities.
What will happen when my muscles betray me? When these tendons refuse to cooperate with the will of my nervous determination? When my fingers stop drumming will I be able to feel my heart beat again?
And just like that, the fall began. It is very, very far.
Friday, November 4, 2011
passive: frustration in hibernation.
Monday, October 10, 2011
God put a smile upon my face.
Saturday, September 24, 2011
spiders, heights and very small spaces.
Friday, September 23, 2011
grey on raye
Saturday, September 10, 2011
A String of Pearls
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Oh Canada!
Canada, oh Canada it's great!
The people are nice and they speak French too.
If you don't like it, man, you sniff glue.
The Great White North, their kilts are plaid,
Hosers take off, it's not half bad.
I want to be where yaks can run free,
Where Royal Mounties can arrest me.
Let's go to Canada, let's leave today,
Canada, oh, Canada, I Sil Vous Plait.
They've got trees, and mooses, and sled dogs,
Lots of lumber, and lumberjacks, and logs!
We all think it's kind of a drag,
That you have to go there to get milk in a bag.
They say "eh?" instead of "what?" or "duh?"
That's the mighty power of Canada.
I want to be where lemmings run into the sea,
Where the marmosets can attack me.
Let's go to Canada, let's leave today,
Canada, oh, Canada, I Sil Vous Plait.
Please, please, explain to me,
How this all has come to be,
We forgot to mention something here.
Did we say that William Shatner is a native citizen?
And Slurpees made from venison,
That's deer.
Let's go to Canada, let's leave today,
Canada, oh, Canada, I Sil Vous Plait.
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Friday, August 5, 2011
how summer thoughts are spent.
Saturday, July 30, 2011
I can't take you there.
Thursday, July 28, 2011
To not send a letter.
God do I miss you. I know the spot on my knee that makes my elbow electric, and it never ceases to amaze me. I want to chain smoke you. They know all about me. Your father, god your father, what must he think? It wasn't supposed to happen the way I think it might be happening. Because you left. It was for the best but you just left and I still have your clothes! I want the smoke of my pipe to float to your place in the world and whisper my breath in your ear. No one else knows the timbre of my voice as you so desired the fluctuations intonations even the silences. I want the future chance to tell you. That a river runs through this heart and it never stops until it finds your embrace your words your hands. It would be selfish to do it now but when will it be too late? I won't give you an inch until I am ready for the endless miles of what lies ahead, and that road trip hasn't started yet. I take time but my mind has a mind of its own, and we both love the books. I never let myself mourn for you cried my eyes out saw you leave but I was brave why did you have to make me be brave? I know you felt me crying because your shirt was wet with snotty tears that I often dream you never washed away. You are the good read I always come back to and have never finished. I have dog-eared your pages (didn't mean to hurt you like that!) Bent the binding written on your margins held you in my hands until the sweat from your palms dripped blood and the pages were too blurred to read. This was no Dick and Jane but you made it so easy for the ideas to resonate. Did I say resonate? I mean't haunt. You haunt me. But I have to put you on the shelf because it is shellfish to do anything else in my current state and you deserve ALL and I know you don't mind shelves anyways, as long as there are books nearby. Just don't wait for me if it hurts. It is all happening the way it is supposed to. The trees tell me so.
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
your pic gets mine.
Monday, July 11, 2011
I Spy: The Ghost of A Good Thing
Thursday, July 7, 2011
the I Am
I was regretting the past
and fearing the future.
Suddenly my Lord was speaking:
“My name is I AM”
He paused.
I waited. He continued,
“When you live in the past
with its mistakes and regrets,
it is hard. I am not there.
My name is not I WAS.
When you live in the future,
with its problems and fears,
it is hard. I am not there.
My name is not I WILL BE.
When you live in this moment
it is not hard. I am here,
My name is I AM.”
-Helen Mallicoat
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
batter my heart.
Monday, June 20, 2011
walking after you
Friday, May 27, 2011
I left it in Astronomy.
At this extended point in the time-space continuum, I should be writing a paper.
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Sestina!
You
used
to
love
me
well.
Well,
you—
me—
used
love
to…
to…
well…
love.
You
used
me.
Me,
too,
used…
well…
you.
Love,
love
me.
You,
too
well
used,
used
love
well.
Me,
too.
You!
You used
to love
me well.
-Ciara Shuttleworth